The Kiss

The Kiss

What is going on here?;

 My heart is about to explode I fear;

It is beating so fast;

I wonder how long this feeling will last?;

She is so pretty;

Even better yet, she is so witty;

Why does she keep touching my arm?;

She is really winning me over with her charm;

Her brown eyes are so amazing;

Perfect for my constant gazing;

Oh no, she caught me staring!;

I really hope she doesn’t think I'm overbearing;

Drat! Now she caught me smiling, what do I do?;

Is it my imagination or is she grinning too?;

Ugh!  "What are you smiling at"? she just asked;

Oh God...I am so embarrassed, I wish my face was masked!;

"N...nothing” Why oh why did I say that?;

I just want to run and hide somewhere...STAT!;

"Oh...you have to tell me...you have the prettiest eyelashes I've ever seen";

Wait...what?  That has to be the strangest compliment I've ever heard...course...what do I know...I'm only eighteen;

What the heck, just go for it;

I'm curious as to what she'll say, I have to admit;

"I'll tell you...for a kiss" I said;

Yikes...look at her face...I'm dead!;

"Hmmmm, OK", was her reply;

Wow!  I guess I'm not about to die!;

I'm so scared;

This is more than I ever dared;

Her perfume smells so good;

Will this get any better? I think it could;

Her lips!  They taste so sweet;

Thank you God for letting us meet!; 

Please don't ever let this end!;

My whole life with this girl I would spend;

This has to be the greatest kiss ever;

Ha...and I thought I was so clever;

Clearly I'm not as slick as I thought;

Just a friendly date was all I sought;

This girl has just stolen my heart;

Was that her plan from the start?;

That was so many years ago;

In that cute little gazebo;

And when I think back to that night do you know what I miss?;

The kiss. 

Perfect wife! I can only dream...sigh.

Too little too late. :(

This is awesome...or it would have been.

So...the other day my wonderful baby girl and I made a little wager.  We got a bunch of mulberry trees to plant and I where I wanted to plant them didn't meet the Isabella seal of approval.  She kept giving me grief over where I picked and she basically said I was an idiot and that I didn't know anything about plants.  I told her...fine...you pick where you want and you plant a couple...and then later on we'll see whose plants are growing better.  Today...after I got done mowing the grass me and my son decided to do a little check on our little competition.  I'm happy to say...aw heck...I'm not saying anything...just look at the picture. :)

What is love...oh baby don't hurt me...don't hurt me no more...

 ...but...seriously...what IS love??

For me...love is that feeling that takes your breath away you get to see that special someone...or that excitement you feel when you get a text message from that someone special...when...even in the middle of the night if you hear that familiar little text message sound from your phone...you grab your phone just to check...and if it's from the special person...you smile and write something back. Really tho...if it were ANYONE else...you'd be TICKED that they woke you up! Or the sadness you get when you don't hear from them in, what seems like forever...when it was actually just 10 minutes since their last text or call. Even better yet...love for me is when you can envision yourself growing old with someone...when looks don't matter and it is WHO THEY ARE that you enjoy. A person that makes you feel like, as long as they believe in you, you can take on the entire world. A person that you would die for if you had too...someone who you would follow to the ends of the earth...and then jump off the edge if need be. (Well...maybe not the jumping part. Heh).

Of course there are different kinds of love. The love I have for my children is unmatched. There could never be any woman that could make me love her more than I love my children. There is no love greater than a parents love for their children.

There is also the love you have for the rest of your family and friends. I would do just about anything for my loved ones. They make me who I am...and I hope I do the same (uh...as long as its a positive...ahem).

But...the love you have for someone when you are IN LOVE is something entirely different. I've not been IN LOVE with many women...3 to be exact (I'm VERY picky when it comes to love). With all 3 I gave everything I could...and all 3 have ended with me...uhm...not being very happy. The pain of losing someone due to death hurts...I know...I lost my mother (and I'm positive losing a child is infinitely worse), but the pain of losing someone because they CHOOSE to not love you anymore...that REALLY stings. I went through all the emotions...shock, the sadness, the denial, the anger, the confusion, the sadness, the denial, the lather, rinse, repeat...er...you get the idea.

So...me being me...a very logical person, started thinking...why? Why do we go through all these emotions? To say you love someone with all your heart...or you've been broken hearted...implies it has something physically to do with your heart. Well...in reality...it has NOTHING to do with your heart. Apparently...according to research...all love is, is a reaction from your brain. Like everything else...thoughts are just electrical currents running to and fro in your mind.

According to research done by Rutgers University (see more info here) there are 3 stages of love. Lust, attraction, and then attachment. Lust (sex drive or libido) is...what it is. There is no sugar coating it. Its the result of all the testosterone and estrogen flowin' through our bodies. Attraction (in humans termed “passionate love,” “obsessive love,” or “infatuation”)  is where you find yourself thinking of someone day in and day out...and its driven by adrenaline, dopamine, and serotonin. We've all been there...its awesome while its happening...and then sucks when its gone. The last stage is attachment (termed “companionate love” in humans)...and is controlled by oxytocin and vasopressin.  I, personally, think this is the best part of being in love...but sadly, so many people end a relationship before it can get to this stage (or even worse...when you are at this stage...and they aren't). Attachment is the feeling couples get when they KNOW they are with the person they want to be with...they make the most successful parents and are the cute old couples that are loving until the end. Like this:


 (and just for the record...that picture chokes me up every time I see it).

When I was younger...I never had any desire to "get with" as many girls as I could.  I always wanted to find the perfect girl (my soul mate)...get a good job...get married...have a son and daughter...white picket fence...dog, cat...grow old...watch as my children grew up to be even more happy and successful than I was...then in my final days sit on the front porch watching the grandchildren play in the yard as I hold the hand of the woman I loved.

Nice fairy tale...isn't it?

So...anyway...as I was doing my research I got to thinking...if love is all chemical and electrical impulses...couldn't one find some kinda way to block or stop that? Soooo...me being me...started thinking...if I could come up with some kinda pill that blocked those things from happening...you could help people that are suffering from heartaches of all types...be it from a breakup...death...just being sad. I thought...HOLY CRAP...I'm on to something here.

Then...5 seconds later I realized...yeah...a drug that makes people forget all about their troubles. I think its called...LSD...or cocaine...or pot...or alcohol. All of which are things I refuse to do.

Dang it!

So...I'm back to my original plan...somehow physically extracting the part of my brain that controls all those useless and crappy emotions.

WISH ME LUCK!

*and just for the record...my last 5 attempts of extracting part of my brain haven't went so well...but...at least I'm only hearing 3 voices in my head now instead of the 8! Yay!

FINALLY! Scientists have figured out women!